I have learned so much over the past month since finding out about my dad’s brain cancer. I have learned new medical information, things about the people I know, what is important in life and how to take care of myself in a way that I never imagined. There have been moments of wanting to sit on the floor, rock back and forth and sob. (Trust me, I have done that.)
On a more positive note, I have learned what my heart and soul needs to stay strong. I always relied on my art and creativity as an outlet, a therapy more or less. I haven’t ventured into my art studio (THE MECCA) much over the last month. When I found myself there I felt a sense of calm. I spent time creating and getting my ugly emotions in check. I also found myself going back to scrapbooking. I didn’t realize how much I was enjoying scrapbooking until the other day when I finished this layout. I guess that part of my art takes me back to pictures of beautiful moments in my life. They help my mind go back to times that were more peaceful–before September 27th when we got the initial news from Dad’s tests.
I also realized how much writing helps me. I spent the early part of October writing about Dad’s progress in this terrible journey. I wrote about the effects on our family and friends. I reflected on the people that reached out to us in so many ways. Those same people find themselves on the pages of my art. Once Dad left New York City, I stopped writing my updates and I miss expressing myself through my words.
Tonight, it hit me that I need to spend more time on my blog…writing about my art, the memories and Dad’s journey. So, here it is–my first official art blogging since my life completely changed…
This layout is from a beautiful night when Corris and I went to see Marty play trumpet with a big band. We headed up to a beautiful lake in the Catskills Mountains in New York. The stunning backdrop was a perfect night to enjoy music. I look at that night as the turning point in my relationship with Corris. We had many conversations that night…some deep about life, some in which we laughed about silly things. I am so thankful for my friendship with Corris, especially at this difficult time in my life. She has been my rock in so many ways.
This is the title from that page. The ROAD TRIP wording is an old chipboard piece that was in my stash. I covered that with Stickles…BLING!
I know what you are thinking…where’s Corris? Well, we took one picture of ourselves that night & it will always be one of my favorite of us. It made its way onto another page that I will post on another day. I loved sharing this night…Marty’s playing was at its best. It was like he played right to me…
This is a bunch of fun embellishments on the right side of the layout. The funky blue ‘thing’ was a sprig that I picked up at Michaels in their holiday section. They have all of these cool sparkly things that would look great on any page or altered project!
Thanks for everything-your love, support and prayers have kept me going. My advice to you–when things feel unbearable, find what makes you feel peaceful. It might be art, music, a good cup of coffee, stiff drink (not too many) or a nap…but allow yourself to do those things. Trust me, it helps. Hope you enjoy my recent art and I HOPE to hear from you. Please take a moment and leave a comment on my blog. (Pass my blog along to your friends and family…you never know who it might help.)